Happy Graduation!

My brother Steven Kade graduated from this life 19 years ago on March 17th. He died of SIDS when he was 6 months old and I was about 3. This year thinking of that day seemed really different than all of the other years, I have found myself remembering him and thinking of the things I do remember. Many people would think that 3 year olds can't really remember much about their childhood. But I definitely remember the morning that he died, I can recall the overwhelming sadness that came upon my mom. I remember trying to comfort her and telling her not to cry because my brother and I were still there. I will never forget the strength of my father as he blessed my lifeless little brother. I remember being sung to every night by my sweet great-aunt Bev (I still think that is how I know so many primary songs). I couldn't help but reflect on that day and remember all of the memories. I find myself wondering what he would be like, what he would sound like and the sweet personality that he would have. My mom has often said that he seemed very close to Heaven for the short time he was alive. Like he was telling her what was going on over there. The events of that day have made me think a lot about what I really believe, do we really live after we die, am I ever going to see him again, really? I believe 100% that it is true and that I will see that sweet baby again and when I do that I won't be able hold in the excitement and the tears. I cannot believe the amazing joy that my mom will have to be able to hold him again, for him to hold her fingers with his chunky little hands and to raise him completely.. finally! For our family to finally be complete. I know that Kade totally involved in our lives today can't wait for us to join him. I think the experience of losing a child has made my parent's even stronger and more dedicated to the church and to the gospel and to raising a righteous family that wants to be together forever. They have never once doubted that God is in control of their lives and that my sweet little brother Kade is with him. They give me great strength and encouragement and have always taught me to rely on the the Lord when the hard times come my way and I am forever grateful for that. Travis and I have decided that one day when we have a son we would like to name him after Kade and hope that he will be able to carry and live up to that name with confidence, love and respect.